Today was Monday.
I was really tired from doing aSS aSS the night before :D haha!
So i went to school for Majulah and all.
I guess the lack of sleep made my eyes look swollen. And well i wasn't in the best mood. felt really dull and stony.
Everyone was like, xinhui are you okay? you look so sad! are you okay? why are you so sad looking! Valerie thought i cried the whole night. >.<
I guess i was feeling a little upset and frustrated by what happened the night before. i just feel that some people should think before they speak. And some people ought to just speak instead of hiding everything. I realised how some people honestly are not how they seem to be. okay haha, i already kind of suspected it a while back but never knew it was so true. misunderstandings are tiring. okay don't misread this or whatsoever. this is more than one thing.
Anyway, after majulah had CE. whoo! free period! hahaha, funfun. just talktalktalk :D:D
Then after that lessons. PE was just filled with screaming. captain's ball! physics was SO fun. SS was free period :D:D Geog was uh. let's not talk about it :D it was pretty bad. not the first time we pissed off a teacher so badly that she walked out. but yeah.
Then Lit was okay. Higher chinese was okay. WHOO i did okay for my test! yay! i think it's like my ONLY a1 this time ):
AWW, clarinet tutor didn't come today though! so had normal sectionals. First self prac then combined :D i must say a lot of people improved. and overall we did improved. i'm very proud of some people :D they really improved a lot!
OMG. i almost lost my voice. Shouting rhythm, singing dynamics and phrasing whilst getting people to quieten down. it's so hard trying to get everyone's attention when SOME PEOPLE just keep yapping and yapping. Some people don't seem to see the urgency! and just kept talking and laughing so freaking loudly. I'm just one person versus don't know how many of you. So i got quite irritated, frustrated and pissed off. I didn't flare up or anything, but i did ask them to keep quiet in a very frustrated voice. I gave a really black face too. Black like the rainy clouds outside. Some people realised i wasn't very happy and was getting frustrated and stepped up :D they took charge and help shushed :D THANK YOU :D i'm so proud to have people like this in my section! but then. there were people who just kept talking. not paying attention during sectionals. until a fellow section mate asked her to shut up. HAHA, which was quite amusing.
The clock's ticking.
I hope they all see the urgency.
After band the sec 4 clarinettist were just talking. And gah, someone cried. Don't cry okay! wipe those tears off dearie! It's really quite sad to see the difference in the band. It's dead. that special spark is missing. And baohong is right, we haven't been able to feel good after a performance. I haven't felt happy after a performance for the longest time. I miss dona. I miss beaming with joy and pride after playing.
Me and baohong both feel that YES WE WANT THE GOLD MAN but most importantly we want to feel proud of our performance. We want to be able to feel good after playing for syf. We don't want to leave any regrets.
Sigh, some people are just so oblivious though. Not willing to listen out to others. Stubbornly playing the way they want. No matter what the seniors way. It's tiring to repeat it. And it's quite obvious that it's to be done, cos everyone says it and everybody else does it.
Haha, then on the way out of school the whole group of us band girls were just talking. we love talking :D sigh. IT'S SO UNFAIR THAT SOME PEOPLE WORK SO MUCH HARDER THAN OTHERS ): it's so unfair that we put in so much effort but the rest doesn't! haha okay that's what we were complaining about :D
I realised my shoulders are tense 24/7. slightly better after a shower. but it just gets tense after that. Is this a bad sign?
Damn i keep squeaking. i think i'm too tense when i play. I'm tense usually. I tense up even more when i play. ohman. i must RELAX.
do you think an extra piece of chocolate would help?