Today was a bad day.
It was a big fat flopping fish.
We had an exchange at SJI. one word: horrendous.
We played so badly, so so so badly. worse than normal practices. worse than any exchange or performance in my opinion.
I believe we have more potential that this. But well, it's just not out. And it's quite sad to see how the band has changed so much.
So well, went back. Mr Tan talked to us. Teachers talked to us. Then me and dawn talked to them. It was quite sad. Haha, somehow my voice started wobbling while i talked. and well tears just sort of filled up. BUT I DID NOT CRY. HAHA, I DID NOT OKAY. yeah, just felt really depressed and angry at myself. haha, but i think some people kind of noticed that little wobble. whoops :D
So anyway since we ended early, i stayed back to practice with like HALF THE BAND. I'M SO PROUD OF YOU ALL :D THANK YOU :D so well, i conducted. but i conducted rubbish. hahaha! it's quite fun to manipulate the music into any sort of nonsense you want :D
Then after that me and jingyun worked on our running notes together! WHOO. WE DID A LOT. hahaha, we sound so much neater now.
Okay then anyway i went popular with grace since dawn went to get the cip certs. then after that went home.
hmm, i was pretty moody already and SOMEONE effectively ticked me off. you meanie mo. you @!#@#@$%&$. and so it just made my mood so much darker. Then after that as i was walking home from the bus stop, guess what. IT STARTED TO RAIN. thank gdness it wasn't like some downpour. and BEING SO SMART, i left my umbrella outside the bandrm ): Well, reached home in time but still.
And the rain just made me feel sad. haha, it was nice and cooling though.
Today i realised something. Feeling sad really makes you lose your apetite. hahaha, for the first time in a long time, i didn't feel hungry at all. even though i haven't eaten lunch. but i still ended up eating BUT THE POINT IS. yeah.
HAHAHA, YUNZHU AND JIYEON'S PHONECALL CHEERED ME UP THOUGH :D hahaha! they wanted me to go all the way to orchard -.- when it was raining cats and dogs -.-
Haha, just now, Ezzul messaged me some chain message:
If there's a next generation, what do you want me as?
1. Gang
2. Friend
3. Bestie
4. Cousin
5. Lover
6. Sister/Brother
7. Girlfriend/Boyfriend
8. Wife/Husband
HAHA, what would you choose for me? :D:D
there after i just did lit notes. WHOO I FINISHED COPYING ANDREA'S NOTES OVER :D hahaha, i shall study hard. i will. i will okay!
DON'T DOUBT ME.
HAHA I WILL. JUST YOU WAIT.
22 days to syf.
we can do it.
